i dont get it...

what am i doing wrong?

why is it that she can get 4 guys to pay more attention to her than her boy friend? she's got boys lined up for her. boys she's not even interested in..

and i don't even have one..

i don't know.

i shouldn't even let this bother me..

im done.

a few things

there are a couple things that i know i wont just happen to inherit in the near future that i kinda want/need... like I really really need a new iPod... mine is just too small for all the freaking music i have.. if any of my friends put out any more music i wont be able to upload it to my iPod.. and deleting music off of it makes me super depressed... so i need one of those.

I want a better camera.. and i know what you're thinking... Suzie, you just had your hands on a good camera and you dropped it STANDING STILL and broke it!! I know I KNOW! goddamit! i feel so stupid for that. i can't believe i did that. i cried for three days. i felt awful, i'm gonna try and take it to a camera shop to see if they can fix it... *Fingers crossed*... but I would like to have my own good camera because then if i break it well.. that's my damn camera... not my freaking older BROTHER'S!!! damn. i still feel bad about that... have i mentioned that i cried for three days after that happened?

I think this is it... the other thing i wanted was a bike, and well, we all know i have one of those... soo... i think i'm done here... sooooo... if any of you happen to have a bigger iPod or a good camera you don't want anymore... give me a holler... we can figure some sort of price or barter... yeah, i'm done.

later taters!

I guess because I've never been in the situation

where you "love" someone so much, even if they treat you like crap, ditch you for their friends constantly, put you down and make you cry, you're still gonna stay with them... I don't understand how you can stay with that kind of person. and then you say that you're stronger than that and you don't need that, and then you stick up for that person, even though they're just gonna turn around and make you cry again. "it hurts too much to forget about them..." & "I would have to move away to forget about them" so you would rather stay here and date this person who is obviously bad for you? I just don't get it... and you're always saying how that you would never put up with someone's bullshit and of you were in a relationship that was unhealthy you would deal with it... but i see it... i see that your relationship is unhealthy. you're always crying over him. he's always ditching you to be with his friends... and then when we spend a few weekends together he complains that you're always spending all the weekends with me... and you cant get upset with him, but he can get upset with you? that's not right. and all you say is that you need to talk, but every time you talk to each other about stuff like this you guys end up fighting and you crying and you coming to me telling me what happened... none of this makes me want to like him... i really did in the beginning... i did. i promise. but the things that you have told me and the way he's been treating you makes me all the more want to burn his house down with him inside... he makes you feel like shit all the time... not just this weekend. don't tell me it's just been this weekend... you were upset with him while you were in vacation and before you left.. i can't even count the number of times you've texted me telling me you're crying because of him... or that you're upset with something he did.. he doesn't help your situation at home either... he just seems to add on to the nonsense of it all... he said he's change, but we all can see that he hasn't and you have even admitted to that. and that he's not grown up enough to handle it... so why stick up for him? why stay with him? you gotta be strong... that's all I'm saying. I know you'll always care about him, but sometimes you gotta let it go, for better things to come along.. and he's no good for you.

i don't know what to tell you anymore because in the end you'll still stick around for him... sadly enough.

sorry for the rant... i needed to vent a little.

k thanks for listening. :)

Day 30: Who Am I?

Who am I? That’s a good question.

let’s take a look.

I’m Suzie. I am 22 years old, I am a native Chicagoan. I love my city and I don’t know if I could ever leave here. I am Chicago Fan, I like hockey and baseball, and sometimes Football… if you’re from a different city I think your team sucks and I don’t care about the stats. Chicago teams pretty much suck, so you’re probably right when you say yours is better, but I’ll defend my city’s teams til the day I die. I am a music enthusiast. It is my life and without music my life would be absolutely horrendous. I love going to live shows, and I am pretty tolerable to all music. I have a very wide taste in music too. I am a little sister. I have the best two older brothers a girl could ask for. No matter how much we fight or argue we still always are there for each other and help each other when its possible.

But most importantly, I am me. I have never changed for anyone and I never plan on changing. I am honest (sometimes too honest) and kind and loving. I am always there when you need me and I am always willing to help out when you’re in need. I am never fake or pretend to be someone i am not. I am me, and that’s who I’ll always be.

“Love me or leave me, or rip me apart, This is the Voice that I was given and if you don’t like it take a long walk off of the shortest pier you can find, ‘cause I’ll be singing it out, I’ll be singing…” -TAI…

Day 29: What I Have Learned This Past Month.

In the last month I’ve learned not to rely on other people to be there all the time. Sometimes people will let you down, and so will the weather… no matter how rain-proof your tent is, it’s still not gonna keep the flood from leaking in and soaking your blankets. Sometimes people are very petty and choose not to do things for others because of silly miscommunications… I’ve learned not to take the turns too fast or you will fall off your bike and damage your knees and elbows. Sometimes the refrigerator repair man doesn’t get it right the first time, or second time, or even third time, so you just have to give in and buy a new one. even the smallest things, like a 3 year old going pee on the big potty are the most rewarding of things. sometimes the people who you think you know the best are the people who you don’t know at all and the people who you don’t know are the people you can relate to the most…

that’s all for now i guess, i can’t think of anything else.

i’m hungry.

later taters.

I went to the Famous Like You CD release show last night

and I have a few thoughts on it.

It’s so nuts to see the same band and same guys that I’ve been going to see for a year or so now up on stage not singing and playing the songs I know by heart, but playing new ones that in a matter of days I will know too. While I was watching them play their new songs there was this sense of new everywhere. They seemed happier if that’s possible. Don’t get me wrong they always look happy when they’re up on stage doing what they love to do the most, but they just looked happier. And older. I mean yeah, logically they are all older, but playing these songs made the band as a whole look more mature. Like, I can think back to all the A Kidnap In Color shows and it all felt a little childish, but there was this sense of grown-up last night, I just can’t really explain. You would have just had to have been there… I think the new songs are probably the biggest factor in this. They are a deeper and more universal so people can relate to them a little more than A Kidnap in Color’s songs. Don’t get me wrong, AKIC songs were all very catchy, but that’s all they were pretty much. I don’t think I could really relate to any of those songs beside Leave the Light on. But from the few songs I have heard from Famous Like You, I’m sure pretty much everyone could find something to relate to in at least one of the songs.

It was good to see that they still had the same fans come out to see them, I recognized a lot of the same faces from old shows… it’s good to see that kids are still gonna support them even with a name change and new songs. but like I see it, they’re the same band, the same group of great guys, same musicians, they just changed their name, kicked the old songs out and wrote a bunch of better ones. (I’m not saying AKIC songs were bad at all, just saying FLY’s new songs are gonna be hits.)

Out with the old, and in with new right?

So,to Davey, Peter, Dan and Chris, great job last night. I look forward to listening to your new EP on repeat for a while and can’t wait to see you lovely fellas at more shows. Keep doing what you guys do, because it’s working for you.

i do realize that i skipped a day...

day 27 was stupid. it was like.. why am i doing this 30 day challenge? my answer was kind of stupid too... if you wanna read it go to my tumblr.. its on there.

later taters.

Day 28: A picture of me last year and a picture of me now. how have I changed?

Let me tell you finding a decent picture from last year and figuring out if it really was last year or the year before that was harder than I thought… fml. but I finally found one. despite it all.

Last Year I kind of looked like this:

Now I look like this:

wanna know how I changed?

well to start with… I have longer hair… haha. and I wear it down a lot more than I use to..

last year I was mildly depressed, my friends, the ones that were still talking to me were not really friends and created a lot of drama around me. I was going to a school i seriously hated, majoring in something I wasn’t sure I still wanted to go into, was watching my parents go through/finalizing a divorce at the age of 21.. as hard as I tried to be happy I wasn’t getting there.

it all seemed to change in a few weeks after the new year…

2010 rolled around I went to Florida started to become friends with Sam again, went to school for two days and pretty much got kicked out (I withdrew myself actually, which i feel was more powerful than actually getting withdrawn by the school)… enrolled in a few classes at the local Community College and I was happier than I ever was. Sam and I stared a revolution in the local music scene.. we became biffstonches, we took over the world and made it ours. I’m not currently enrolled in any kind of school, I think maybe a semester or two off will be good. I think I’m gonna help Sam with Abbey and her going to some afternoon classes or whatnot… and in a few weeks I will be an AUNT!! for the first time! I can’t wait!

It’s magical how a few simple moves can make you change from ultimately unhappy to pretty much the happiest person in the world.

random thoughts today.

i think the worst feeling is being let down by a friend who I would have dropped anything for. If it doesn't go her way it's the end of the world, but if it doesn't go my way I'm the bad person for getting upset. I'm sorry, weren't you the one who said you value my opinion and feelings as an individual? this is the second time you've shown that you really don't care. and that hurts. but whatever. you always get your way some how, not don't you.

Day 26: What I Think of My Friends.

every friend I have ever had in my life I have loved with my whole heart. I’m not talking about acquaintances. That girl who sat next to me in Physics and we use to joke about how stupid our teacher was, or the boy who I use to share cookies with during B lunch because his mom use to give him like 10 and he couldn’t finish them. I don’t remember their names anyways. I’m talking about my FRIENDS. People who have come in to my life and touch my heart. Brought a piece of them, gave me their heart and I gave them mine, and even if they aren’t in my life anymore, they have certainly left a piece of them with me.

I have had numerous “best” friends and like most people have lost “best” friends. But along the way, you find out who were real friends and who were just in your life for a moment and then left.

They say that people come into your life to teach you a lesson and then leave. I don’t think I have ever learned a real lesson from my old friends. If anything, I have learned not to talk behind their backs, don’t lie or be fake. The people who matter don’t mind, and the people who don’t mind don’t matter… Be yourself. That’s what I learned. Your real friends wont care if your skinny or fat or short or tall, if you have straight blonde hair or brown curly hair… or if you wear glasses or braces. If they do care, then as hard as it is, you gotta cut them out.. all they’ll do is bring you down. oh. and drama free friends are the best. I’ve learned that certain people just like to carry drama wherever they go… I knew a girl who’s motto was “Drama doesn’t follow me, I carry it on my back” -yeah that’s some sweet Cute Is What We Aim For lyrics. But if they like drama they should go out for the school play or something… not be included in your life…

Now. on to my friends. Without them sometimes I would be useless. they are where I fall back on and I get to be me. We just do our thing and we don’t care what other people think… we are awesome bitches and we know it.. no one else’s opinions matter to us. No one else matters when we are together. We own this place. and we know it.

and with that said. I love Samantha Syslo with my more than my whole heart, like my whole being. She’s more than a friend, more like a sister. Which I hear is almost the same thing… I wouldn’t know, I don’t have a sister. Everyday we find something new about ourselves and everyday we find out how much more a like we are than we thought we were. She’s the best. Love you biff$tonch. (yeah I did use the $. ahaha) and if you don’t know what stonch means, well then, you’re just not cool enough.. : )

ok. that’s enough of this.

later taters.

I Am My Brother's Sister

I came up out of the tunnel on the trails fast took the turn too fast, I saw the gravel on the trail and slid. messed my knee up... I would have sat there on the trail and laughed at myself a little but there was a lady who saw me and stopped to help me. She was more worried about me than I was. I assured her I was ok.. and got back on my bike and kept riding... stopped at the park to wash off the dirt and blood and made sure it wasn't too bad... then rode to Brandon's to clean it then made my way home. I knew exactly what my mom's reaction would be... "OMG SUZIE WHAT HAPPENED?! WHAT DID YOU DO?! ARE YOU OK? all i could do was laugh.

Ben would be proud. and on his birthday. so, this one is for you Ben. Love you. :)

Day 25: What You Would FInd in My Bag

my whole world is in my bag.

there is:

a makeup bag

a bag of essentials i.e. band-aids, neosporin, hair ties, bobby pins, tampons, allergy meds, zit cream, lip gloss, flash drive, lighter, tide stick..

wallet.

camera

phone

keys

iPod and ear buds

gum

sunglasses

Dr. Pepper lip gloss

play-doh

body spray

dinosaur crazy bands

stegosaurus

& one blue monkey from barrel of monkeys.. thanks to Abbey.

that’s it… sometimes there’s other stuff. but that’s usually it…

Day 24: A Letter to Your Parents

Dear Mom,

I love you. so much. like beyond words. I don’t know who I would be or where I would be if you weren’t here for me and with me through everything we have gone through and well, my whole life. You are my rock. When my friends deserted me it was you who was there to talk to.. as far back as I can remember you were always there. And I appreciate that so much. you don’t even know. You have supported my every move in life and even if you didn’t fully agree with decisions you still supported me and let me be an individual. I know sometimes you feel under appreciated, not just by me, but the boys too, but even if we don’t show it, we feel it in our hearts. We are all very thankful you raised us so well, and you did so much with us that we have become three very cultured, well-rounded individuals. And we could not be ever so thankful for that. We love you all so much. Everything you do for us. Every little gesture or phone call. All the cookies, cakes, pies and brownies you have made and every wound you’ve bandaged, every injury you’ve wrapped and every sickness you’ve ailed. we love you. telling you a trillion times how much we love you couldn’t even begin to tell you how much we love you. You’re the best. and I love you.

Love, Suzie

now that I’m crying and I’m pretty sure when my mom reads that she’ll be crying I’m going to write another letter… to my dad… kind of… anyone who knows me will get it, and get a laugh out of it. : )

Dear Dad,

you don’t know I exist and that you gave me life. I admire you from afar and from the TV and movie screen. I watch you with wonder and pride at the same time. You are so successful and funny, I wonder what it would have been like to grow up with you and to know you. But I watch you and am proud to know that you are my father. Maybe one day I’ll get the courage and/or balls to find you and tell you who I am. I’ve read in the news that you got married. She looks nice, but kind of young, more like and older sister… I’VE ALWAYS WANTED A SISTER! and that you guys are expecting a child soon. Oh, how I wish I would have had that same privileges as that child will have. It’s not your fault, you didn’t know I exist. I don’t blame you for anything. I never will. One day you’ll know who I am… maybe we can do a movie about this whole thing. I bet it would be a funny story line. A great blockbuster, a true story with the real people who it’s about! Genius right? yeah, I am quite brilliant, but you wouldn’t know that. You don’t know who I am. I hope one day you will. Because I love you.

Love, Suzie

: ) hahahaha

ps. I guess if i really wrote a letter to my dad, I'd just get angry start swearing and crying and a whole big mess, so I opted to write one to my other dad. just easier on my well being right now.

kthanksbye.

love you.

Day 23: Something I Crave A Lot.

Starbees. more specific venti iced caramel macchiatos.

like right now. all i can think of is how much i want one... but driving to starbees just seems like so much effort right now...

every day I think about going and decide not to, but I still want to.. it's more of an addiction than a craving but, it's not serious or anything.

Day 22: What makes you different

my name is Suzie. no one else i know has my name. that makes me pretty different. I like to lie make up stories that don’t really happen in my life. I tell most of these lies stories to people I don’t know and will never see again. I usually don’t give a flying sh!t what people think or say about me unless your opinion is my mom’s, Ben’s or Sam’s. if you’re not one of them, I really could care less. I’m usually the one who says what everyone else is thinking. I don’t usually have a lot to say, I’m rather quiet, but when I do have something to say, I let it be heard. I don’t care if you judge me, because truth be told, I’m probably judging you too. It’s hard to poke fun at me because I make fun of myself, and if your laughing at me, well, I’m probably laughing at me too. I have 6 year old boy tendencies. I love dinosaurs and robots and riding my bike. plus I have A.D.D. and that doesn’t help much either… i get side tracked a lot and its hard for me to keep my attention on one thing at a time for very long. my life isn’t quite focused on one specific thing right now, just kind of living.

ok. i think that’s enough.

later taterrrrs!

DAy 21: A Picture of something that makes me happy.

So, I wanted to use music. that's probably the one thing that has and will always make me the happiest. no matter what I'm feeling I can turn to music and every care in the world is eliminated and I'm just happy. the picture is of The Maine's three albums, which I find myself listening to a lot lately. they make me happy too. Plus, John O'Callaghan is pretty nice to look at. he makes me happy too. haha.

Day 20: Someone who i can see myself marrying/being with in the future.

If I could see into my future I could answer this properly.

There are some people who I know will always be with me in my life.. like my mom and my brothers and Sam. But I don’t think that’s what your looking for. you want me to say something along the lines of my boyfriend that I have been dating since I was 15 and I can see myself marrying him and being with him til my last breath… but that’s not really my story.
I’d like to say I can see myself with someone like… like him… you know the band boy with the crooked smile. John Oh in particular. haha…

yeah.

ok. now that I have embarrassed myself enough today.

later taters.

Day 19: Nicknames I have and how I got them.

I don’t really have nicknames… just shorter versions of my real name… which i guess are nicknames, i just don’t have any cool ones…

people call me Suzie (obvies), Suz, Sue, Suzie Q (i personally hate that one.. i tell people it doesn’t bother me, but it drives me banana sandwich)… one of my old friends use calls me Anne because that’s the last half of my first name Suzanne… I’m pretty sure that’s all I have ever been called… my friends and family aren’t that creative… kind of funny seeing as I nickname everyone and everything..

oh ps.

that bike in the last post is my new ride, Stacii... she's pretty sweet. she rides faster than Peggy Sue my 1969 Schwinn Fiesta cruiser... don't get me wrong, i love my fiesta, just just like to ride faster than a grandma... :)

ok. later taters.

on to jersey shore...

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^^that's me dyeing a little. haha

Day 18: Pans/dreams/goals I have

Plans:

biking the trails on Stacii (yeah, i added an extra i.. because she’s amazing) everyday, or almost everyday with Sam.

not driving my car unless it is super nessacary.

drive to Vermont at the end of the month with my mom to visit some extraordinary family.

looking back into a legit school… maybe.

being the best aunt everrrrr when Little E gets here in the fall.

Dreams:

living either A. far far away from here, or B. in the city.

having a family of my own.

adopting a pit bull puppy.

Goals:

finish at least 2 books by the end of the summer.

finish the first journal and start the second one.

clean my room?

visit NYC when I’m out east.. and the Ben and Jerry’s factory :)

bike lots and lots…

that’s all i can think of right now… gotta get dressed and over to sam’s it’s Jersey Shore night… (Kill me please ;] )

Day 17: Someone You would switch Lives with & why

the girl on the left is Carey Mulligen aka Shia LaBeouf’s girl friend… haha. I’d switch lives with her… A. She’s SHIA’S GIRLFRIEND!!! and B. she’s british.

just for a day.

: )

Day 16: Another picture of myself.

it took me like foreverrrr to find another picture that didn't look half retarded... and i have always kind of liked this one... this is when i had dark(er) hair and it was cut suuuuuper short... like maybe 2 years ago... it's still me tho.

: )

Day 15: first 10 songs that come up on your Ipod on Shuffle.

I’m just glad my iPod works again…

and here we go!

1. Shut Up - Blink-182

2. Finger on the Trigger - Never Heard Of It

3. Scene Change - White Tie Affair

4. Right Now (na na na) - Akon

5. Three Oh Nine - Hit The Lights

6. Sweet Emotions - Aerosmith

7. It was Summer… (Baby Steps) - October Fall

8. Carry Me Home - The Hush Sound

9. Good News - Something Corporate

10. Cringe - Alkaline Trio

Day 14: A Picture of your family

I guess you wanted a picture of my immediate family, but this is it, plus my aunts, uncles and cousins for my mom’s side of the family.. PLUS that’s not all of them… we were in ATL for my cousin Sara’s wedding… this is right before my brother and cousin Dylan broke the revolving door and then we got into rape vans and went to the partyyyyy.

i think that was one of the best weddings i have ever been to, besides my oldest brother’s… that one was the best.

Day 13: A Letter to Someone who has hurt your recently.

Dear Someone,

you have hurt me recently.

maybe you should say you’re sorry.

Love,

Suzie

Day 12: How I found out about Tumblr and why I made one.

ok, again, this isn't Tumblr, so I go with the blog thing... but i guess if you want to see my Tumblr, you can click here :) it's pretty much the coolest thing everrrrr... i'm on that more than anything...

but it's mostly pictures of William Beckett, John O' and random stuff i find... a few things i actually write, but most of it is reblogged from other people... :)

ok aaaanywaaaays...

I always knew about blogs, but i figured i didn't really need one, but some of my friends had one and my brothers have one, so I figured, well, I like writing about myself, because you know, I'm so conceided and all... so I figured lets see how stupid I can make myself sound... hahaha.. I'm glad like 2.5 people read this... so no one really cares... and i really don't care what people think of me... so here I am... take me or leave me. I'll still be here... making an idiot of myself.. it's cool.

So that's the story.

the end.

:)

ps. i know the picture has nothing to do with this post, i just found it on Tumblr and thought it as cute. and i love it. :)

Day 11: Another Picture of my friends and me.

These are the kids I grew up with.

left to right: Jordan, Katie, me and Jacob.

these are the only kids my mom would allow me to hang out with when i was little... my bff's before i knew what a bff was... Jake and I were pals up until middle school when hanging with the opposite sex started to get weird... then we got new friends... haha. we're still friends to this day.. we just live farther away than we use to.. sad. i know.

Day 10: Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

This will take foreverrrrrrrrrr. so i’m gonna break this down for you so you can understand my feelings towards music. I’ll hold your hand like a small child.

I don’t listen to music because I am in a certain mood. I don’t have bands i listen to when I’m happy or sad or mad or angry or pumped or relaxed. I listen to music because it’s who I am. I listen to certain bands more than others because I feel like their words, their lyrics are how I am feelings all the time, they are my life.

Some times, yes, I do listen to a band to get me motivated, *Cough* New Politics *Cough* haha… but I listen to most of the stuff because I just do.

I can list a few of my favorite bands/artists if you would like me to.. ok?

ok.

here we go. break it down. (Sam, I said that in my DJ Lance Rock voice haha)

☆The Academy Is…

☆The Maine

☆New Politics

☆Motion City Soundtrack

☆Never Shout Never!

☆Matt Hires

☆Remember Maine

☆Bayside

☆Saves the Day

☆Get Up Kids

☆Alkaline Trio

☆Jack’s Mannequin

☆Something Corprate

That doesn’t even include all the local bands I love so dearly and I listen to them when I’m feeling homesick… : )

I could go on and on and on and on about certain bands and certain music but i wont make you endure that. that’s about it.

later taterrrrs.

Day 9: Something You're proud of in the past few days.

OK… these are the last of the cupcakes I made for my sister-in-laws baby shower… I am super proud of how awesome the turned out… it was the first time I uses a frosting thingy to make them look better than using a spatula… i was in love with them…

but that’s not the only thing I’m proud of. The fact that I pulled a baby shower together in only a few short weeks and it went amazingly and almost everyone showed up despite the weather, flooded streets and closed express ways…

oh and that I stayed awake that whole weekend. those were a few really long days of never stopping and sleeping very little..

I give myself a little pat on the back for that weekend. nice job, Suzie. :)

Day 8: Short Term Goals for this Month and Why?

seeing as this month is almost up… i will give you some goals I have for as long as I have left on this 30 day thinger here….

1. it would be like so totally rad to finish at least one book I have started this summer…

2. I gonna try not to charge a whole lot to my credit card seeing as i’m getting hounded on for spending too much..

3. buy a bike off craig’s list and start riding trails.. i miss riding my bike.. fast as least.

4. clean my room… it’s a disaster area as of right now.

5. journal more.. i haven’t written anything lately… like as in my own hand writing.

6. i’m thinking about a new piercing or a tattoo.. because it’s about time i got one…

7. look into what school i want to go to… and what program… since i’m currently not in school anymore… i need to go back sooner or later…

8. maybe find a job… seeing as i don’t have one.

9. I want to get to the beach… like a real one, not a city one. i haven’t been to the beach since May.. and that was when i was in Florida…

10. Stop thinking about certain boy because they are worthless and not worth my time.

Day 7: A Picture of someone who has had the biggest impact on you.

This is my oldest brother Ben. He's helped me to become the person I am today. He's helped me to be myself and not let what other people think change me. He taught me so much in the last 22 years and has introduced so much into my life that without him I would be a totally different person.

I was going to use music as something that has had the biggest impact on my life, because music has gotten me through a lot of my life and without it i wouldn't know what to dow with myself, but it was actually Ben who got me into some of the first bands I really started listening to... before that, i was listening to boy bands and stupid shit like that. So I figured I would just go with Ben instead... seeing as it always comes back to him in the first place.

So, thanks Ben, for being a great big brother and helping me discover who I am and remembering that it doesn't matter what other people think of me. I love you.

Day 6: You're favorite superhero and why.

ok... I know Rainbow Brite isn't a real superhero, but she's damn close. She saves the world from Murky and black and white. She puts color into the world. yeah, she's pretty baller.

Day 5: A Picture of a Place where i have been to.

I miss this beach. I miss this bridge. This Bridge. It connects where my heart was and where my heart is.

ps. sorry for the late post... i was gone all day yesterday.

another one soon.

Day 4: A Habit I Wish I Didn't Have.

I have lots of bad habits… I’m just not ashamed of most of them.

One habit i need to break though, is every time I start reading a book, I never seem to finish it… I get like half way through it and just loose interest in reading it anymore… so, not I have like five half read book sitting all over my house and I have little to no interest in finishing them… or maybe i will… we’ll see.

Day 3: A Picture of Me and My Friends..

this is at Summerfest with Sam, David and Poul from New Politics and our new friends Megan and Stephanie. this is probably the most recent picture of my friends... and yes, I do consider the guys from New Politics my friends. we're all wearing mustaches, cuz we're ballers.

um p.s.

Sam and I are going to see New Politics again on Friday at Soldier Field. then we're housing them. :) we're camping in Sam's back yard.. it's gonna be epic. Only because we're friends with them now. and they love us. and well, we're just that awesome to house a RCA band. :)

that's it.

later taters.

Day 2: Meaning behind my tumblr name...

Seeing as this isn't Tumblr, I'll give you the meaning behind my blog name... (I just copied and pasted this off of tumblr)

Short, Fast and Loud is actually a title of an old Fall Out Boy song from like they're first album, An Evening Out With Your Girlfriend... I like the song alright, but I always liked the title because it kind of describes me pretty well. I'm short. I only reach 5'1''... no short jokes thanks.. :) I fast as in i can come back with a witty comeback in a matter of seconds, and I am loud... when i want to be. I am usually quite, but when i need to be heard or have something to say I'll let you know.

So that's about it. yeah.

later taterssss.

Day 1: A picture of me and 15 interesting facts about me..

we'll start off right away. You might know all this already, but i haven't changes much. :)

1. I have an obsessive love for dinosaurs

2. i have 9 piercings. four in each ear and my nose..

3. i love all things pink and sparkly.

4. pizza and beer is my meal of choice.

5. i always need to have my nails painted. i can’t stand bare nails.

6. my room is painted bright yellow.

7. my favorite colors are green, yellow, pink, turquoise and purple.

8. my favorite Disney movies are Peter Pan and Alice in Wonderland

9. I think robots are super cute.

10. I have an unhealthy addiction on sunglasses.

11. i don’t eat food with gelatin in it.

12. i love cheese. all kinds.

13. i got kicked out of school for being too awesome. or something like that..

14. i like to refer to myself as a hippy.

15. music is my life and without it i might as well just die.

30 day Challenge list thingy...

here's something to keep me posting more often.. it's like a big list of FF's for me to help you get to know me better.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

Day 02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends

Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?