so I'm feeling all weird inside and i'm not sure how to express it... and no. it's not love... there's none of that. i think... it's happiness... ? yes. i think thats it. A LOT has happened in the last like 12 hours and i don't think i could have made better choices. I feel like there is a lot of weight that had been taken off of me that i've been holding onto for soooo long, and now it's gone. with just a few phone calls and some swift decisions, but not too swift. they were thoughtful and had lots of input from very important people, and i'm very thankful for them helping me out. and i love them very much.
I feel like I was drowning in a really shallow puddle and I couldn't just stand up.
I'm ok now... I really am. Like i said before, this year is going to be full of life changing decisions and there is so much potential. who knows what's going to happen.
I also feel like i have a little more confidence in myself. that's always been a problem with myself. and i feel like i now have more of it and it's making me feel better about myself and what i'm doing.
my parents make me feel very confident too. they support me and what i do, and always will... and even when i feel like the biggest failure they know me better than i know myself and have complete confidence in my success and that makes me believe in myself.
I just felt like i needed to get that out.
I am very happy and i don't think anything can make me happier at this point... and if something does... you'll know. haha.
ok. my best frien two-fifteen AM is staring me in the face... i'll go now.
peas.
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